The letter I wish I could write my boyfriend.


Dear _____,
Here lately, I feel like you don't want to be with me. You make me make every single decision, so if something goes wrong, you blame it on me. You talk to other girls all the time, and it's not just small talk. You flirt with other girls all the time. You tell other girls that you love them. You wouldn't tell me who you cheated on, and the condoms randomly disappear like it's nobody's business, and I know you just can't be giving them to your friends. You get so defensive whenever I blame you for cheating, whenever if you really weren't cheating, you wouldn't get so defensive. You talk to your ex girlfriend, who you swore on everything that you wouldn't talk to again, yet you're writing her letters at basic right now, and probably called her before you got your phone taken away, because you sure didn't call me. I want to be with you. But I want to be 1,000,000,000,000% sure that you want to be with me, because it's not worth staying with me if you're going to continue to talk to girls the ways that you do. Especially your ex girlfriends. 


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But you know why I'm afraid to write the letter? Because I KNOW he'll dump me. He'll see all the shit, get pissed that I blamed him for cheating, and then be mean and tell me our relationship isn't worth it. Like he always does...